"You can't do this, you should be more realistic"
Hi Bloggers, Sorry I haven't written for a few days, I have been feeling not myself and as I told my counsellor I felt very alone in myself and felt bad but am slowly feeling better. You are probably wondering about this title here. It's because I have been feeling that I am going nowhere in achieving my goal of working for Ouch and this is what my Outreach worker Ela keeps telling me every time I tell her I want to work there. She thinks that I wouldn't be able to travel to London each time and that I would be tired after work.
Nothing is impossible in this world and I might find it tiring but there are ways around it. I know I keep going on about this that I would like to work there but it's a place that I would find great to work in.
There are loads of questions and my head is confused with stuff at the moment so I don't know what I think.
Questions like:
Why don't they let me try working there?
Why do I only get few comments on here, do people find my blog boring and they are fed up with me on Ouch and here. ( I know most aren't fed up with me but some are!)
Why do I keep feeling bad and people are not wishing to be friends with me, I'm not all bad!
It's probably because people are making me upset and my loneliness contributes to me feeling awful every day.
Sorry if I feel self indulgent and self pitying, I always like this, it's only sometimes!
You lot are great and you lot are my true mates better than my real friends sometimes! Especially lovely Chris, 'm sorry you have to read about me feeling bad honey, but you make me feel better, and wish I could reward you in some small way to say how much you have helped me to get over things and make me a better person within myself.
Hope all of you are okay!